It’s been some time since I have last written a blog post here. I am all about being real and vulnerable so let me be honest with you. I used to be someone that would isolate and allow the enemy to have such reign over my mind which would cause me to feel shame over things I was facing rather than embracing the freedom that God intended for me.
When the Lord brought me through healing from my two abortions, that was when I felt such full freedom in being vulnerable and real with others. This meant that no matter the sin, no matter the struggle, no matter the temptation, I was reaching out to the few godly women in my life who I could share the details with and ask for prayer.
But then something happened.
My post-abortive healing class ended in May and about a month later, I felt constant attacks and such oppression and I felt completely blind-sided by it. I have been facing this for over a month now and it really kept me from writing and sharing what was going on because me and God had to deal together. Me and God have had a lot of heart-to-heart conversations and I have had to really deal with some hard things. This leads me to what I felt God asking me to write about for this new blog post. Spiritual warfare. Temptations. Sin.
Let’s dig deep and talk about the spiritual warfare that surrounds us and some that we are not even aware of which can become more dangerous if we are not daily on our knees before Jesus. Spiritual warfare takes place because the enemy does not want anything good for you. Satan wants to take your joy, rob you of your peace, keep you entangled in that struggle and sin, and keep you from what God has designed for you. God came to give us life and life to the full. God has such good for our lives, He has purpose and he desires for us to walk in freedom and experience joy and peace.
When God carries us through something and we have overcome a sin, a past situation, or whatever it may be for you personally, we feel free, don’t we? We feel like we can handle anything that comes our way because we have experienced Jesus in a new way because of the way he has freed us and healed us. But what happens when we are faced with those same past temptations and same struggles? Is God allowing that? Are they attacks or is it God, or both? Those are questions that for me, over the past 5 weeks or so, have been going through my mind. I found myself face to face with past temptations and struggles that I really haven’t struggled with in so long and I was caught off guard. Now here is my answer to those questions; yes, they are attacks, but also yes God allowed them to come because he wanted to deal with more stuff that he knew I needed to work through.
Because here is the thing my friends, certain attacks will keep coming back to tempt us because in the past, essentially what we have done is we have just covered them with a bandaid and have not dealt with the root issues of why that sin was happening in the first place! God loves us so deeply and desires full freedom for our lives. If you are noticing the same patterns coming back to the surface, or old temptations causing havoc in your mind, struggles that you can’t seem to shake; DO NOT run from them only saying that the enemy is attacking you but instead RUN to Jesus and ask him what he is trying to speak into your life, ask him why he is allowing these things to come to the surface and then allow God to hold your hand and carry you through that so that he can get to the root stuff that we are so often unaware is even there. See, God knows us better than we know ourselves. Too many times we see what we want, but God sees what we need and much of the time God knows we need to deal with that root thing that keeps causing the problem so when the problem arises again, we understand why and can fight back with the tools that God has given us to say to the enemy, “NO! Not today! God has already won this battle and I am set free!”
God allows us to face the temptation and be in the middle of the battle because he loves us, wants to grow us, and wants us to experience the full freedom he desires for us. To do that, we have to bring our stuff into the light. When we do that, the enemy does not have a hold anymore. The power is broken by God’s light! Bringing it to God brings freedom and freedom releases shame.
Shame is not from God. Shame is from Satan. Conviction and grace is from God.
I have had so many days over the last 5 weeks where I have been faced with attack after attack and I have had to literally stop what I am doing, get on my knees with my bible out and say this exact thing, “Okay God. This is taking over my mind. This is something I cannot shake. This feels too much and I know that you are bringing this to the surface because you want to heal more layers and bring more freedom, so Lord, show me what I need to see.” I challenge you to pray that too. When the temptation comes, when the struggle comes, when that past thing tries to creep back in that you thought was behind you, I challenge you to look to Jesus with that and ask him how he wants to grow you.
Let’s be aware and ready for when God chooses to allow those attacks to come because he brings things to the surface not as a way to harm you, but as a way to bring you to a place of abundance so you can claim victory and reach the other side where that sin that once held you down has no more authority!
Romans 6:14 – Sin is no longer your master, for you no longer live under the requirements of the law. Instead, you live under the freedom of God’s grace.
Psalm 34:4-5 – I prayed to the Lord, and he answered me. He freed me from all my fears. Those who look to him for help will be radiant with joy; no shadow of shame will darken their faces.